i feel like

all of a sudden i crave for the feeling of being in love. i want to fall in love but i dont know how. for once, to let myself go. to write my very own love story. yes! love is in the air~

after flipping through the brochures, i also have this urge. to enrol myself in Chinese studies in NP. but no choice though.

many people's blog is getting all emo so i should have this emo entry too. anyway i'm renowned for being emo no harm reverting back to my original self =X. throughout secondary school life, i had known a lot of friends. many of them who care, many of them who understand, and many who stand by me.

from an outsider's view, i'm one surrounded by many friends. anywhere i go, there'll be people whom i know. but inside i would say, i cant really express myself to anyone. it's not a sad thing really it isn't.

well, i used to value friendship. something i cannot live without. but as time goes by, everyone has to come to this realization. you can live on memory.

you dont need the so called soul mates and best friends to be there all the time. i'm glad i once had friends who stood by me, gave in to me and treasured me. i once had friends whom i can talk to. that should be enough.

for those who still grieve over things like they have very few close friends (not referring to anyone in particular) be glad to have those few pairs of listening ears. since upper sec, i cant reall relate to anyone. i dont have that somebody.

i appreciate the clique, the ten of us. we do have common past, we share many memories and i am glad i have everyone of you. even though i am not very close to everyone, when i have my own problems i cant really talk to anyone of you i still think that Chickenlets you are a great gang of friends.

of course not to forget, the other friends. i appreciate each and everyone of you. if need be, hakim. you helped me a lot throughout my sec school life. even the shirt that i wear to work was bought by you. i dont know how to thank you though.

how many memorable birthday have you got? for me, once. last year to be exact. for the first time, i have friends to be around to celebrate with me. i dont mind if i dont receive any present, what i wanted most was that song.

the birthday song. i had sung a few hundred times for many people but i never get to hear it until last year. that is why i insisted for a birthday song in K box and also in pizza hut. i yearned for it.

everytime i hear people around me with surprises during their birthday i am envious. but all i ask for was that song. the song that i've waited for 4 years. When elda, shie yar, kai wei and ying xuan called on 12 and sang me a birthday song. I cried.

for four years. it was the first time i heard the song sang specially for me. beatrice was shocked when i told her that it was my first birthday celebration. but it's true. i would have to thank Chickenlets and my clique of friends.

that is not important. now as we move on, i seriously believe that memories live on. yes it might fade but when you hit the right button, it will all come alive again. although we might be parting and proceeding on to different paths, we will still remember our very own clique of friends

wont we?

one thing for sure. even if memories do fade, i am sure that we dont feel aloof when we meet up in the future. we shared the common history, we shared common root, and most importantly we have the common affection.

we are friend in the past, we are friend now, we will still be friends in the future.