stressed!

i am so bothered over my project work. i am neither here nor there and i dont know how to go about finishing my preliminary idea. i find what i've written a bunch of rubbish.

i feel that the whole project work thingy is stupid. i don't really enjoy doing something that i do not have a clear picture of it. this is bad.

looking around. i have notes spread on my table. all in a mess and the guidelines dont seem to guide me along with my preliminary idea. the prospect of doing a good PI is bleak.

i'm kinda pissed off by the whole mess i've created. i tried blasting the speaker to ease my frustration but it just add on to my anxiety!

all of a sudden i feel an urge. the urge to eat! if i had a car, i will drive myself to chomp chomp and order something from every stall. sheesh!

school's having festival of life tomorrow. i will be leaving early for dental appointment. argh. why tomorrow. i will appreciate it if the appointment falls on tuesday. i dont have to waste my 5 hrs in school to learn how to be resilient!

why i dont have a swimming pool at home? if i had one, i will throw myself into the pool and go for a few laps to relax and cool down. i am a goner!

i wanna stuff all the notes into the blender and blend them into pieces so i see none of the word waving at me. darn! i am suffering from depression?! impossible.

listen people. if you dont know what i am going through. here's something to consider:
to produce a project in this way "miss tan doing chin-up in a swimming pool". how can i ever link my project task to that? this is really interesting...