okay. final warning. no more maple! no more third job (though i wish to). argh. fine i should just do holiday homework then. since my promos results aint fantastic AND ocip will take up a major part of my holiday. sheesh~
i am different.
looks. deceiving. i might seem to have everything but i lack the most crucial of all. as complete as it seems, i have almost everything that one can crave for but something that everyone has is missing for me. i am truly different.
believe it or not.
i have this urge to run through a long walkway and not turn back. let everything slip pass me, leaving emotions behind, along with the steps that i took. at the end, i hope to collapse and sleep for as long a period as possible. long enough for me to forget everything and start anew.
why cant i be normal. who to decide my fate. i am different (really).
tomorrow's training totally spoilt my mood. i can feel monday blues setting in despite the fact that it is only half past eleven. i feel like i'm wasting my time in the rifle range. go for training just for dry firing and, if i am lucky, a few live fire shots.
another thing that pissed me off is that my shooting rocks. i have resigned to fate about myself being the reserve for the team. i have no grouping, at best a vertical grouping. who the hell shoots vertical grouping?
ocip will eat up my weekdays from this week onwards. i cant believe i'm going to learn the borriquito dance!! yes wenson. the one which made us looked totally REtarded during the orientation. yes azri, aj's mass dance that's nowhere comparable to ny's.
i hope i will be able to be there for chickenlets' outing and also the class sakae lunch/dinner. okay let's make it dinner since lunch is rather impossible for me and yiyao. and bryan suggested dinner too, because he wants the romantic ambience or something along that line.
DNM, it has been eons since i last went out with you. please book me out as soon as possible. if not i might even forget how you look like.
i think i'm insane or something. i feel like running around Singapore just to visit dogs. (PS: not their owners). hop to lishi's house and stare and teddy though i am afraid i might end up worst than lishi. next to jamie's house to play with gaeko and gucci (jack russell and schnauzer). drop by ben's house to take a look at his yorkshire terrier ... ...
ultimately, i hope that i have a dog. i want a toy breed though i really wish to have a golden retriever.
imagine...
i ordered The Straits Time for GP (LOL) then this GR of mine collects it every morning. when i wake up, it will bring the paper to me. okay, i'm dreaming. i NEED a dog.
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