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everything came too fast and ended too fast. tomorrow's class chalet and i have been looking forward to it. too much things happened and i'm lazy to jot down every single event. post-promos period is nothing but slacking. i think this is way too unhealthy.

there'll be training for shooting during the holidays. argh and by the look of it.. i will miss most of the training and i'm sure the reserve position will be reserved for me. =X i dont like the feeling but i have this omen that nothing goes right for me.

seriously, jc life is really an eye-opener. it's where you see what might not exist in your world. how harsh reality can be and it leads us to the cruel world outside. though it's tormenting but i did not showed any sign of sadness when i knew the many departures.

not that i am cold, not at all. i just dont know how to react. not as if crying will change anything. i keep with me the cliche saying "hope for the best, you dont know what lies ahead". that's so much i can do as a friend. i'm in no position to say anything. i got the better.

all of a sudden, life seems so helpless. i dont like it when people around me are helpless. i dont want anyone to be dependent on any others because nothing remains constant in this world. perhaps there is, but it's none other than change.

how i wish time stop at the time when we were in secondary school. everything then was too beautiful. there's nothing i dont want to see and there's all i want with me. there's no parting. there's no terrible fate which none of us half expected.

alright something about today. went swimming with my brother at Woodlands Swimming Complex. it undergone renovation and has a new look now. a pool for children to play with slides and water sprays. medium pool remains the same except for an inclusion of a small jacuzzi by the side. deep pool is there like always nothing changed. the toilet and changing rooms are so much better.

swam for 15 laps today and soaked myself in the jacuzzi for a good half an hour. went to look for brother like mad for half an hour and sneezed like nobody's business. from totally wet to partially dried. thanks to him. after washing up.. home sweet home..

i cant help but to say it again that tomorrow's the class chalet. eh perhaps it's our first chalet that's why i'm like so excited over it. i hope the chalet turns out to be a nice and memorable one.


how harsh reality can get
caused me to forget how to cry