a lot of time i wasted,
wishing i could be,
the opposite of everything
my mirrow showed to me.
but then one day i realized,
the only thing to do,
was to be a better me
and not another you.
argh.. why is the whole world wearing vest? a major turn off but i dont want to wear suit either. and why does NUM require resume? why is it so hard to apply for a job and why is the online application for relief teaching such a pain in the ass. it's so tedious and ridiculous to a large extent. what is limiting the period which i am free to either the end of this year or the end of next year?! and someone told me NUM is only offering a pathetic 5 dollars per hour. i know they do things differently but i thought they should pay differently too. not much of a difference after all huh...
it's mega sian! SIAN... somehow i have a phobia for relief teaching. okay height issue has never hit me so hard before but this time round it just keeps setting in. i kept having random thoughts of myself walking into a classroom of adolescents. the moment i set foot into a classroom, a bastard out of nowhere will shout "where's the teacher?"... am i thinking too much of is it too little?
but the point is... in the end, i did not apply for relief teaching because the process is way too tedious. very not user-friendly. job job job when can i get a job. i'm craving for a personal assistant now to help me sort out my life and get me a job! and i still can't believe num offers only 5 dollars per hour. shock shock horror horror...
